Slipping Through My Fingers

Wow, I have been actively blogging since last year. This will be my last post of the year and I am going to take a break from blogging. I don't know when I will continue back but once I got new and fresh idea and inspiration, then I will be back.

Day by Day and month after month, time just past by like the wind blowing and slipping through my fingers -I can feel it but I can't hold it back- and 2008 is going to finish soon. Time flies! I was experiencing God during 2007 and this year, I am still experiencing God but in different ways compare to 2007. And I am looking forward to experience God in a greater manner next year!

Next year, I will going back to Ipoh until July for my final clinical attachment -will be finishing my course on July- I am going to miss everything here at PJ especially the people that I met and my weekday and weekend will not be the same anymore when I am going to back to Ipoh.

Bye to everyone! Miss you all very much! ='(

Blessed Christmas and New Year! Signing out... God bless!

Jingle Bell, Jingle Bell.... CLOWNING All The Way...

Last year, I had a great time serving as a clown. I did posted some pictures of me as a clown last year on 2007 posts.

This year, I am doing it again! =) And I am enjoying every single moment of it. Last Sunday, the promotion team of this year Children's Church Christmas Party did a promotion at Sunway Pyramid and I was there too as a clown together with two children; Olivia and Jane as the children clown.

(from the left, Olivia, Me and Jane)

Then, next Sunday -21st of December- 7 of us (Theodore, Steven, Sam, Timothy, David, Daryll and myself) will be clowns and we will be doing a skit, dance and game for the Children's Church Christmas Party 2008.

Here I have some pictures that Cornelia took on last Tuesday during the Clown make-up practice at church:-

(the paint was on my teeth)

(From the left; Abigail -She is so cute as a clown- and me)

Can't Wait To Step Into The World Of Photography

Next week, I am going to get this DSLR camera -Sony Alpha 200- I am so excited about it!

I didn't know that I am so into photography. Actually, since young, I guess I already started to like this hobby of photography. I still remembered that I asked my dad for some money to buy camera -those day, the camera was non digital type, all required film- but my dad didn't gave me 'coz it was too expensive.

Then, one morning, he surprised me with a camera that he bought in Singapore. I still remembered that the brand of that camera was Olympus. I was really happy and started taking photos around my house. But in the end, the camera spoiled when I borrowed it to my friend and he didn't return the spoiled camera to me! As I think back, I felt really bad about it.

I thank God for this passion that I have in photography and I want to use this passion to serve the Him!

p/s: As I type this post, this thought came into my mind -I want to use my new camera to take one photo with my dad and ask him whether he still remembered that he bought me a camera before-

Footprints

Last Saturday was my commissioning as a Children's Leader. Then, I received this card and bookmark from Pr. Nancy -Children's Church Pastor-

The message on the bookmark really caught my attention. I was so encouraged by the message. The title of the message on the bookmark is -Footprints- by 2008 Earthscope Enterprises. Here's the message that I want to share with you all:-

One night a man had a dream. he dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonged to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happens at the lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times of my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied, "My previous child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your time of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

I was so encouraged by the message. After I read the message, I imagined on how the LORD carry me by giving me a piggyback ride.

=') I am so happy to have a Father who always carry me through my trial and suffering. Brother and sister, don't be discouraged by your trial and suffering, our Father in heaven is always keeping His promises and one of the promises is "I will never leave you nor forsake you!"

I like phrase that wrote by Sister Elaine, my friend from Ipoh, saying...
"God did not promise us a smooth journey in our life BUT He promised to walk with us every steps of our life!"

As long as HAND IN HAND & SIDE BY SIDE with the LORD, you will experience the love, peace and joy! AMEN! I^-^I

Forgiveness

Recently, my cousin bought this video game known as Burnout Revenge and the motto of this video game is 'Forgiveness Is For Losers'.

Isn't it scary where actually people think that forgiveness is for losers? You may think that it is just a phrase that people use to promote their video game or to make their video game sound cool... But what I concern the most is that the children may use this phrase as their motto for their life. Aren't you worry if your children don't practice forgiveness and think that forgiveness is just for losers? And right now, my cousin brother is playing with the video game and some more, he thinks the phrase is so cool. Aiyoyo... so how?

But I believe that the gospel will set them free and will protect them from this false teaching. Jesus always forgive and He is not a loser; to many of us, He is our Superhero because of His great love, mercy and grace, we are forgiven through His sacrificial on the cross. He died for our sins on the cross so that we are forgiven from our sins! Jesus is so cool... Today, He is risen and His Name is above all names, above all nations, above all kingdoms and above everything in this world.

Sometimes, -I know- it is not easy for us to forgive someone, but all things are possible with God; with Him in us, we can do anything! We can always learn how to forgive just like Jesus. In my opinion, forgiveness can't take place where there is no LOVE. Start to love, then follow by forgiveness.

There are one person that I find it very hard to forgive; is my dad. Because of his ignorance to the family, I am really upset and angry at him. To forgive my dad, I think I need to love him more and more each day which I know is not easy. Experiencing God's love and forgiveness really helps me to love my dad more and learn to forgive him. It is not easy at times, but God is my help and strength.

If people think that forgiveness is for losers, I hope that they will think again. Forgiveness is not something to determine whether it is for the losers or winners. Forgiveness is a beautiful act where God use it to demonstrate His great love for us by sending His one and only Son, Jesus to died for us on the cross so that we are forgiven from our sins and we are set free from slaving to our sins! This is so cool and awesome!

All praises, glories and honors to the Lord! I^-^I

I'm Learning To Be A Good And Effective Leader!

This morning, I was so unhappy. Recently, I really don't know why that I am so easily get agitated especially inside my class. Maybe I am not enough of sleep... =(

I was happy during my way to my college. When I entered my class, the mood was changed! My lecturer put some burdens on my shoulder by giving me some works, then my course mates added in some more and I was so upset and eventually ended up unhappy!

Some of my course mates realised that I was unhappy and a little angry. I felt really bad and some how I felt guilty because I worried that my attitude might hurt them.

Then, all these negative questions came into my thoughts like "why no body is willing to take some responsibilities from me by helping me to carry some of them?" "why they are so selfish by letting me to do all things on my own?" "why they are not willing to step out to help me in some class works like photocopy notes?" "why? why? and why?"

Being a leader is not easy. Being the leader for my course mates is even harder and more challenging. I am like serving 25 people with 25 different characters and 25 types of behaviours. There are times that I want to give up! =(

But I always and strongly believe that God put me in this situation because He wants to shape and mold my characters in leadership. Through these two years++ of serving at my college, I realised that there are more things that I need to learn and need to change within myself to be a good and effective leader.

First thing that I need to learn is to have the right attitude that don't always feel and think like want to quit when there's difficulty. This is not easy -I know- but nothing is impossible; all I need is to learn to surrender to God and let Him direct the way! "Leaders don't quit and quitters don't lead!"

Secondly, I must learn to take up challenges in leading and to have a willing heart to go for extra miles for the people! Thirdly, I must serve with humility; I need to be more humble and not follow my own desire and emotion.

And finally, I need to have the Fruit of the Spirit -Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and Self control- to be a good and effective leader!

Painting In The Modern Way! -Inside The Lift-

Painting In Modern Way! -Kar Ze-

Last Saturday, it was my first time meeting and knowing this boy name Kar Ze. He is Jefrey’s –my cell member– cousin brother.

He is a smart boy and I really enjoyed being with him. I guess that he likes fish because he likes the fish stickers that I used to decorate on a birthday card. He said that it was a waste to paste the fish sticker there and he said it would be better to give it to him. I remembered that I have some left over fish stickers, so I gave it to him. He wanted the big fish sticker which was not there, so I promised him to get him a new one and will pass it to him on this Wednesday or anytime when I will see him.

Then, we went to Jacey’s –my another cell member– house, he asked Jefrey whether the house got aquarium or not. Therefore, I guess that he likes fish.

He is a bit mischievous but I really enjoyed talking to him and playing with him. He was enjoying the massaging that I did on his leg but not on the shoulder because he felt ticklish!

He got a lot of IQ questions and jokes too. I really enjoyed laughing together with him and everyone also enjoyed seeing him laughing. He can do magic very well too. I was amazed by him.

All praises and glories to Lord that I was given an opportunity to know Kar Ze and had a great and wonderful time with him. I^-^I

Painting In Modern Way! -Children Of The World-

After painting the picture "Japanese and Nur", I was inspired to paint another picture about children. So last night, I use the paint software in computer to paint another picture about children

Praise the Lord; by His wonderful anointing, I painted this picture and I named it; "Children of the World"

Let's us pray together for the children around the world including the children in our own nation -Malaysia- every time when we remember them or whenever they come across your mind or any children that you see around your house, your working place, school, public area and any where! Pray for their salvation and pray that they will experience the Lord as their heavenly father who loves them very much! Pray also that they will experience the hope and peace in the Lord! AMEN! I^-^I

'Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these - Matthew 19:14'

Painting In Modern Way!

I am at my college computer lab now and nothing to do. So, I am using the paint software on the computer to paint out this picture for my friend; Shakilah -she is sitting next to me- This painting is known as "Japanese and Nur" I^-^I

Do You Make Mistake?

Do you make mistake? Obviously, I think every one of us does 'cause nobody is perfect. I am not a perfect person too. I do make mistakes in my life.

I am very much an impatient guy. I am do have pride in me. I am also easily get agitated when things do not go smoothly; then I will get angry and upset. Every time when I make mistake, I will feel very guilty! I am so not perfect!

But God is patient and He is kind and good. He is perfect; always perfect and He will never make mistakes!

Do you know why that I need to face hardship, challenges and difficulties in my life? Is it because I make mistake in my life? Is it because I am naughty? Obviously, when you did something wrong, you need face the consequences but facing the consequences of my mistake is NOT the answer why I need to face hardship, challenges and difficulties in my life...

"When the way is rough is rough, your patience has a chance to grow. So let it grow, and don't try to squirm out of your problems. For when your patience is finally in full bloom, then you will be ready for anything, strong in character, full and complete - James 1;3-4 TLB"

Actually the truth is that God is using the hardship and difficulties that I went through to shape my character. God taught me how to be patient and how to be humble. He also taught me how to serve with LOVE.

Pr. Nancy -my mentor- told me not to be discouraged by the hardship that I went through because God want to shape my character so that I can fit into the plan that He had prepared for me!

"If the Lord delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm; though he stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand - Psalm 37:23-24 NIV"

I always make mistake because I am not perfect person but I am willingly to learn from my mistake. Please be patient with me ya 'cause God is not done with me yet! I^-^I

Happy Feet

Last night, my church was having a Worship Celebration together with Pr. Glenn Packiam from New Life Church, Colorado Springs.

Wow, I had great time worshipping the Lord! Jumping, dancing and praising the Lord; it was so awesome! All my friends and my cell members were enjoying themselves worshipping the Lord too. God deserve all the high praises!

During the praising song -I Am Free-, it is a fast song; we all were dancing, jumping, praising and worshipping the Lord! At the same time, I was crying 'cause I was touched by the truth that I am free to dance, I am free to run and I AM FREE. Indeed, it is so true that Jesus had already set me free since the day He died for me on the cross! I was dancing with tears of joy! :'-)

Last night was a blessed night, two of my friends were ministered and refreshed by the Lord! We all were joyfully worshipping the Lord last night with our HAPPY FEET! All praises, honors and glories to our mighty and awesome God! I^-^I

Ever Thought Of Being A Radiographer?

"Why are you in this field?" This is the question that people always approach me whenever I said that I am a medical imaging student.

Who is a radiographer? Radiographer is a member of healthcare; professionally trained to take X-ray and to do scanning. Radiographer is not a doctor. Doctor who is specialized in radiography known as Radiologist. So, radiographer and radiologist are two different profession.

Actually, I never thought of being a radiographer. I wanted to be a doctor when I was in secondary school but then I didn't do well during my high school. Then, I wanted to do something on creative side because this is who I am but didn't manage to get into the college because of some loan problem. Then, I remembered that one of my high school teachers recommended me to do radiography although it is not as glamour as doctor -she knew that I want to do medicine-

Doing radiography was my last resort. But I believed that God intended it to be something that good for me! Firstly, He blessed me with the financial to study in this field by sending my aunt to bless me for the registration fees.

It is not bad at all studying in this field. All the experience that I gained and the excitement that I went through was unexplainable -super fun and enjoying- After three clinical attachments that I went -KL General Hospital, Kulim and Malacca- I gained a lot of experiences and most of it was an eye opening experience to me which I can't gain it from books and internet!

Dangerous? Yes, there are some risks to be in this field especially the exposure to radiation and to sickness! But we learn to protect ourselves and the X-ray department is designed in such a way to protect the staffs and patients from unnecessary exposure of radiation.

There are a lot more for me to explore in this field especially next time when I start working as a radiographer!

Really Thank God for everything; for His wonderful blessing and guidance through out the past two years studying in the field. Nothing was easy but it was a worthwhile journey to traveled! I^-^I God bless ya!

Counting The Wrongs

Last week, I was jokingly with my friend by counting the total of wrong things that she did to me. In addition, her mistakes were not the serious ones; all of it was minor plus accidentally and not on purpose. But because I wanted to joke with her so I just purposely acknowledged her about her wrong things that she did to me and counted one by one in front of her.

Yesterday, again I pin pointed and acknowledged her about the wrong things that she did to me –actually she was not wrong, just I purposely said that she was wrong– and accumulated it with the total that she did last week. Oops… Am I very naughty? Sorry…

From the incident above I was just joking with my friend by counting her mistakes –I was just joking with her and she was aware of it too; both of us were laughing about it–

Through the incident above, even though it was just a joke but it really makes me think and questioning myself; “have I ever count my own mistakes or wrong doings?” Sometimes, especially an imperfect person like who I am, I do count other people’s mistakes and wrong doings but I never really count my own mistakes and wrong doings!

In my opinion, counting other people’s mistakes or wrong doings is the same like judging others. Do we have the right to judge others when we ourselves are not perfect at all? Have you ever count other people’s wrong doings? If yes, let’s us reflect on our mistake or our weakness on this matter. How do we overcome this mistake?

Firstly, come before the Lord and ask God to forgive our sin. Then, repent from it. Remember, with God all things are possible, just surrender ourselves to Him and trust Him that He will set us free from this mistake or sin. Rely on God’s strength –only God’s strength is perfect enough– to help us to overcome this mistake or sin.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. – 2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV”

Secondly, remember God’s words from the Bible. God stated very clearly that don’t judge others or else we will be judged!
“Stop judging others and you will not be judged. – Matthew 7:1 NLT”
And this is the consequence too of judging others!

Thirdly, look at one’s strengths and accept one’s weaknesses or mistakes! I have a lot of friends with different behavior, different thinking and different character. And each of them has their own strengths and weaknesses. When I look at their strengths, it really makes me so proud of them and it can also help me to learn to accept their weaknesses. Sometimes, I can even forget about their weaknesses too every time when I look into their strengths.

Is it alright to judge when come to situation that we need to make judgment? When come to situation that we have to make a judgment then we must do so with fairness and integrity! It is written in the Bible:-
“Do not pervert justice; do not show partiality to the poor or favoritism to the great, but judge your neighbor fairly – Leviticus 19:15 NIV”

Last but not least, do everything out of LOVE; eventually you will learn how to love others without judging others. And remember only God is capable of judging rightly every time and not us! I^-^I God bless ya!

The Greatest Story

I was listening to this song by Avalon, the title is “The Greatest Story” –here’s the lyric goes: your life in Christ can be the greatest story ever told– I like this song so much and the lyric is so meaningful. I agreed with what the lyric is written, indeed our testimonies on how we came to know Jesus and accepted Him as our personal Lord and Saviour, on how Jesus helped us through our difficulty in life, etc. can be very powerful way to inspire and touch life and can be the greatest story ever told!

Last Friday night, I went out yum cha with Denise and Melissa. Wow, we had a great time fellowshipping and praying together for our friends and family.

Hey, Denise and Melissa. I thank God for both of you and thanks for praying for me and my family!

After hearing Denise’s and Melissa’s stories and testimonies on how God have touched their life and how God had bless them, I was so touched and inspired –immediately my fire for God was flaming even more and want to do more for the Lord–

“Let us not give up meeting together; as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another –and all the more as you see the Day approaching. – Hebrews 10:25”

Their life in Christ and everything that God did in their life can be the greatest story ever told; to me it is definitely the greatest story ever told because it is a story that brings inspiration, care, faith, love and hope!

All these greatest stories whether about myself or others; are the inspiration that keeps me writing on this blog –Faith, Love and Hope– and all these stories are from God!
Wondering what is Faith? Looking for unconditional Love? And finding Hope that never fails? All these can be found in the VERY GREAT –greater than greatest– story that ever told from 2000 years ago; the story of Jesus Christ! I^-^I Do you want to know more about Him? Feel free to email me at jackyltroy@yahoo.com

God bless ya!

United Through Kongsi Raya

"Kongsi Raya" means sharing festival. Malaysia is a multiracial and multicultural country. Besides than Christmas and Chinese New Year, I also celebrated Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Deepavali by visiting my Malay friend and also my Indian friend during their festival.

Last Wednesday, MAHSA College Medical Imaging Student Acciosiation (MMISA) organised a feast called "Deepa-Raya Feast". We were doing the feast inconjunction with Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Deepavali.

During the preparation of the feast, I learned about the real meaning of "UNITY". My Indian friends were doing "Kolam" -an Indian art of decoration by using colourful rice-

Then, I helped them. After that, one of my Malay friend came to help out as well. Wow, two Indians, one Chinese and one Malay; together, we finished the "Kolam"!

This is what I called "Unity" -we are Malaysian!-

That evening, during the Deepa-Raya Feast, I was wearing green Baju Melayu -just top only- Wow, I love the dress so much!

(my coursemates I^-^I)

(from the left: Priya and Jothi)

(from the left: Ira and Nur Shakilah)

(from the left: Kalai and Kohmala with their beautiful "Sari")

Petronas Twin Towers... Here I Am! =P

YEAH.... "What Time Is It?" -sound like High School Musical? Even the jumping post also look like High School Musical! Hehe!-

Petronas Twin Towers... Here I am... Yeah!

On 17th of October, my best friend, Hafiz and I went for Petronas Twin Towers Skybridge visit.

Around 8am to 8.10am, many people were already queuing up for the passes -most of them are foreigner- At the time we reached the counter, we were offered for the 9am passes but we took the 10.15am passes.

Oh yea, the passes are free anyway and you can queue for five passes! By 10am, they were issuing 6pm passes. When I came down from the Skybridge around 10.30am, all passes were finish. If you are planning to go, please go there early to queue for the passes.

The Skybridge is at 41 floors and the lift is super fast -reaching 41 floors less than 41 seconds- The visit is just 10 minutes only but to me I think it is just nice because nothing much to do there besides than taking photograph and enjoying the view.

-picture 2: the shadow of the Twin Towers and picture 4: view of Suria KLCC from the top-

Do you know, my legs was shaking as I walk towards the glass where I can look down -scary!-

But we had a great time. After this visit, we went to few other places like Pavilion, Agong Palace and Planetarium. At the end of the day, we met up with our friend Poh Lee at Midvalley and had our dinner there. =)

-I like this picture; astronauts sleep in this way when they are at space. Hehe!-

Great Awakening!

Last August, I had a great time during my Mission Candidates’ Preparation Programme Part-2 (MCPP-2) training at Sepang. At first, I was so reluctant to go because I thought that I was going there alone. Usually going for training, I will go together with my friends but this time, I thought I was going there alone. Ok, going alone can make new friends, I know but I just felt a little nervous, as you know, you will get a little nervous when you are together with a new group of people. Then, I prayed and told the Lord that I believe that signing up and going for this training will not be a mistake but a blessing from God.

God is good all the time! Amen! Guess what, God brought my friends along with me too – Fui Fui, David and Kath and also Baby Allison. I was so happy to have them there with me during the weekend. God never leave me to be alone, just like last time my Bible College Class, I thought I was alone but God is so good; my friends also signed up for the class and we studied together. Wow, Praise the Lord! Indeed, God loves me.

In addition, I was blessed by God too. During the stay-in weekend training, wow, it was so refreshing. Hearing all the testimonies from Yew On and Chern Chern, watching the videos of missionaries, listening to the sharing of Pr. Ling, doing morning devotion with my team, having all the fun ice-breaker, wonderful worshipping time, all the fellowship during group discussion, chit-chatting and sharing and also all the foods; all these things that I mentioned above really made my weekend so refreshing and not regretting at all that I signed up for this training.

I was really blessed and so inspired to hear all the sharing and testimonies from Yew On and Chern Chern. They are missionaries from my church under OMF to serve at Cambodia. It is never be easy to be a missionary but God is good, He is always faithfully keeping His promises. Holding on to His promises and the vision that He set for us really can keep us running the race as a missionary.

After watching the video about William Carrie, God reminded me about my calling through the video. William Carrie is a missionary at India, God called him to go to India to bring the good news of Jesus there. He went through a lot of obstacles and difficulties – He even lost his son and his wife. But he didn’t give up and keep holding on to the vision that God had prepared for him. His ministry was not bearing fruit during the first 7 years at India. After 7 years, the vision that God had set for him was fulfilled and bears fruits! Things that I learned for him is to be patient and wait for God’s perfect timing.
“Patient is bitter but the fruit is sweet!”

After the movie, we had a group discussion; my group leader shared something and reminded me about my calling. Last year, during Children Leaders’ retreat, I received my calling from God. I felt really bad that such a long time I didn’t pray for my calling. I believed that God is reminding me again about my calling. Praise the Lord!

Then, Pr. Ling shared something with us about Giants in our life. Last time, the Israelites were afraid about the giants, because the people there were so big and huge and they were so afraid to conquer the land but Caleb and Joshua were not afraid because they knew that God was with them. Three things that Pr. Ling shared on what we should do when we are facing giants (like our problems and obstacles) in our life:
1. Remember all the things that God has done for all of us.
· God is bigger than all of our problems
2. Remember God’s great mercy
3. Lord is with us
· Lord is with us because of His promise
· Believe the Lord

The morning devotion with my team members and Chern Chern was very wonderful and refreshing. My team leader was sharing about Gideon from the bible. Then we shared about obstacles in life and when God is with us, victory is always in our hands.
“God + One = Majority”
Then my team leader shared his testimony which was very inspiring!

I want to thank God for my team member – Chris (my leader) and Siew Ling. I am so excited and looking forward to work with them. Then, I met Keith, I knew him during my previous MCPP-1 training. Do you know he even gave me some IQ test during our break? Hehe… I also met other people as well like Grace, etc. I also want to thank God for all these people that I met.

I put my name under Nepal short-term mission trip end of next years. This time, I was not afraid or feeling unsure or worry to put down my name as the commitment to go for short term mission trip because God had blessed my previous Cambodia mission trip and He will do it again if He call me to go. Amen!

Not to forget about the foods too. It was quite good. I still remembered during breakfast on Sunday morning, Fui Fui and I just ate so crazily… We were just like diving into the swimming pool that fills with foods… Hahaha… Anyway, thank God for the foods.

After the training, David, Kath, Fui Fui, Baby Allison and I; we went to Jaya 33 for dinner. I really enjoyed the fellowship during our journey back to Petaling Jaya and during our dinner. Looking forward to more of that! Thank God for everything and this blessed weekend! Indeed, it was a great awakening weekend! Praise the Lord!

"Xin De Yi Tian, Xin De Xi Wang"

"Xin De Yi Tian, Xin De Xi Wang" means A New Day With A New Hope! I picked up this phrase from a Cantonese drama that I watched. This phrase really inspired me!

Everyday with Jesus in my life, everyday is a day with a new hope! AMEN! (^o,^)

The Heart That Beats

Yesterday, during worship at Children's Church, Pr. Nancy came up to the stage and she asked everyone of us to put our hand at our hearts and feel the beats. Then, a vision of my youngest age as a baby and child came to me... I sensed the Lord was telling me that how precious I am to Him.

I am really blessed to have a healthy heart -physically- that is so faithfully beating for me to keep me living. This reminds me of my heavenly Daddy who is also so faithfully taking good care of me because I am so precious to Him. He never give up on me and faithfully loving me as His son. Sometimes, my mistakes hurt Him but because of His unconditional love, He faithfully forgive me everytime when I humbly go to Him and confess of my mistakes.

How about my spiritual heart? One day, I realised that my heart was so harden like a rock. And I know a harden heart can't never beat for other people like loving them or caring for them. How can a harden heart shows compassion and loving towards others? This is not right! I cannot go on like this. God make my heart to beat for His people...

One evening, as I was walking along a street, I was thinking about the condition of my heart and I told the Lord to turn my harden heart into "Tofu" heart -soft-

I shared this prayer with my friend, Rachel. Instead of a "Tofu" heart, she told that she rather want to have a "Marshmallow" heart.

Wow, this is so true! A "Marshmallow" heart -soft but not so fragile and most importantly, it can bring SWEETNESS to the people!- Yes, Lord, I want this heart!

Let's us ask the Lord to turn our heart into "Marshmallow" heart that beat with sweetness and gentleness to others! AMEN!

Wow... Watching Football Can Be So Much Fun!

Last Sunday, I joined my brother, Timmy and our friends -Bernard and Amelia- watching football match -Liverpool VS Man City- at Kayu, Aman Suria.

I personally not a football fan. I seldom -very seldom- watching football.

But after last Sunday, I realised that watching football is so much fun! Hehe...

I learned something too from the match. Man City scored the first two goals during first half. But then, during second half, Liverpool scored three goals and won the match! I was really encouraged by Liverpool team for not giving up and keep working hard for the goals!

Sometimes, to reach our goals, we might face certain failure or obstacles. It can be very challenging... But don't give up and one day you will be successful!
"Every failure is a step stone to success!"

Like Thomas Edison; failed many times when he was inventing the light bulb but thank God that he didn't give up or else we will have no light today!

Remember, God made us an overcomer and a successor!

Breathe Again With New And Everlasting Life

Yesterday, I just lost a friend; Connor Wong Man Yee

(21st Aug 1968 - 14th Sept 2008)

Connor has returned back to the Lord last night at about 10.55pm. He was diagnosed with lymphatic cancer and then, the cancer cells spread to his lungs. He was having difficulty in breathing...

But right now he can breathe again -no more pain and suffering- in heaven! Connor, we miss you very much! One day, we will see you again in heaven!

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time uproot...
a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance...
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. - Ecclesiastes 3: 1-2, 4 & 11"

White Flag

Have you ever heard the song; "White Flag" by Dido? I like that song. I think most of us know what is the meaning of "White Flag". Raising the white flag means that you're surrendering! So, when you are surrendering, you are telling people that you are losing or you are already lost! BUT in my opinion, not all the time that surrendering means that you are losing...

As a Christian, I learned to surrender to God. Surrender to God does not mean that you are losing to God but you are allowing God to be God and at the same time, you are learning to trust Him and have Faith in Him.

Last Tuesday, I learned it very well. My bus was on 5.30pm; to go back to Ipoh. At 3pm, I finished bathing and finished packing my stuff. Then, I went to the cafeteria below my hostel to take my lunch. The sky was really dark. Before 3pm, it rained for a while; then stopped already! After I finished my lunch, around 3.35pm, I bumped into my friend, so I sat with him and talk to him for a while. By 4pm, the rain came... Very, very heavy!

Then, I was worried; worry about getting wet and miss my bus. So I opened the window which is next to my bed, then I prayed and worship the Lord. I sang my own song as I worship the Lord - "Lord, you uphold every rain in my life and calm every raging sea in my life..." Then, my worried slowly and slowly turned into peace... Guess what, around 4.25pm, the rain stopped, completely! Wow, Praise God!

And I reached bus stop on time! (^o,-) Wow, God is good all the time! I was worried but I learned surrender to the Lord by praying and worship Him! When I retreat, God will take His place and He will take control of everything... Praise God!

Here In My Home

Here In My Home by Malaysian Artistes For Unity!

To download this video or the mp3 for this song, log on to the website below:-
www.malaysianartistesforunity.info

Things Are Changing; Nothing Stay The Same Except...

Things are changing from time to time and nothing stay the same except for God - He is the same God today, yesterday and the days to come.

Like wise, we as a human are changing from time to time! As I look back into my past, wow, I realised that so many things are not the same anymore... My family, my relatives, my cousins, my friends even myself had changed. Some of us become more mature, growing older, getting better in life, facing difficulty in life, gain some wonderful experience, going through bitterness, etc.

Some changes are good for us, in my opinion, most of it are good for us because we need to change and learn from our mistakes so that we will learn to be a better person. But remember, don't change yourself just to please others! Some changes also help us to learn to let go our unwanted past and help us to look to the future.

Seeing some going into new chapter of life; this shows that everything is changing... Things are going very fast even my country is changing too. Some changes are positive and some are negative... What will happen to us if the changes of our life, our environment, our status, etc are affecting us? Are you able to control it?

No worries, GOD is always in control. Amen!

Two Of My Friends Are Leaving!

I have two friends who are leaving Malaysia soon. One of my high school friend, Fong Chu, is leaving to New Zealand early next month. She is going there to work. Thank God that I was able to catch up with her for dinner before she's leaving.

Then, this friday, my friend, Troy Lim, is leaving to UK to further his study in medicine for 5 years. Last Sunday, my friends and I gathered together with Troy to have lunch together at Wendy's, Jaya One. We had a great time together!(Troy with his cute little tie! Hehe)

I am surely going to miss both of you very much! "All the best to both of you! And God bless ya!"

I Am Back!

Wow... Long time didn't update my blog already. I was very busy the whole month and a lot of things that I went through... Some was tiring, some was enjoying and some was very refreshing... =)

Guess what, my hairs grow longer...

(on my right is my best friend, Sara)

Do I look cool? Hehe... Actually, I think I look like those people who were living in the 60's... =P "Saturday Night Fever"... Hehe!

I am having holidays now until October. So far, two main highlights to share...

Firstly, I went for Mission Candidates' Preparation Programme - 2 and it was fantastic... I learned a lot and gained a lot of experiences too. It was a very refreshing weekend to me! Praise God!

Secondly, last week, DUMC Children's Church organised the very first Vacation Bible School - Game Day Central; Where Heroes Are Made! Praise God! I had a lot of fun and laughter with the children, leaders, helpers and parents even though it was very tiring.

More pictures of the children and leaders in actions during the VBS. These pictures are taken by Jonathan Khoo:-

Cheng Fong, Carolyn, Hong Hong, Wen-I, Edwin, helpers, and myself were looking after the 5 -6 years old group. Valiant is our group name! Here's our logo:-

Here's our group's cheers:-
"Everybody listens to us, we are here to show our strength. We are strong in Jesus Name, And we will never be ashamed! Go.... Valiant!"

Seeing the children memorizing the Cheers, seeing their joyful face and having their hugs were the sweetest feeling that I received from God during the three days of VBS. My heart was melting by them.

Thank God for His wonderful blessing! Praise the Lord! =)