I am Broke but I am Not Poor!

On Friday early morning, as usual that I was awake since last night, then my spectacles was oily, so I wiped it with t-shirt. This time, I wiped it hard until I spoiled my spectacles... Cut the story short, I went for repairing and eye scanning. They repair my old one -which I wearing now- then, I need to make a new one because the degree of my eyes increase -getting worse; but not very much- it cost me RM350 for a new pair of spectacle. I'm going to be BROKE once I settle the bill -so far, I just paid RM5o as the deposit- ='(

I think I made a mistake for making a new pair of spectacle because I still can see with my old one plus my old one still can wear after repaired. Sigh... I was so sad and upset the whole yesterday! My heart was aching -as usual especially you think you make a mistake plus spending so much money for the mistake- Sigh...

But then, today, God reminded me about Him as a Father who provides and in control of everything. I was so blessed! Last time, God used the dark sky and sunshine to remind me about Him and today, I sensed that again He showed me the same phenomena! Praise the Lord!

Then, I thought, if I am happy that I didn't spend the RM350 and feeling secure of having the RM350, then, this is not good because I putting my trust and hope on the money -something that cannot last and secure me for life-

Then, I thought about God's promises! Am I not more precious than the sparrows? Of course I am more precious than the sparrows; I am heavenly Daddy's little prince. Why I feel sad that I spent on something that is good for my sight and why I worried becoming broke when I have my heavenly Daddy who is looking after me, taking really good care of me and love me unconditionally!

I know, money is something and without it can be very hard but money is not everything; in addition God is my Jehovah Jireh -the Lord provides- AMEN! I am broke, but I am not poor and I am happy! Praise the Lord! =) I love you, Jesus!

M.E. L..A.M.E.?!

Hehe... Am I LAME?! I think I am very LAME! Haha! My cousin sister always say that I am very lame!

I enjoy being lame because it can make people laugh and make people happy!
M - Making
E - 'em (them)

L - Laugh
A - Are
M - My
E- Encouragement!

I am always encourage when people around me are happy! So, I always try to make them happy and make them laugh by being lame with all my lame jokes, lame action and lame words! Haha!

"A cheerful heart does good like medicine, but a broken spirit makes one sick." - Proverbs 17:22, TLB

So, when people around me are happy, I am also encourage and be happy at the same time! =) God bless ya!

The Beautiful Awakening!

I had a beautiful awakening on last weekend during Mission Candidates Preparation Programme - Part 2 (MCPP-2) at Peacehaven, Genting Highlands!

I guess I had been sleeping for past a year... Wandering off from the right track, go to the left and go to right; searching here and there... Feeling so lost!

I praise God for Pr. Ling who encouraged me to go for my second round of MCPP-2. I was really reluctant to go at first! Out of obedience, I went and I praise God that I made choice to go for MCPP-2. I really praise God and thank God for the blessed weekend! I was inspired, I was encouraged and I found my way back to God again!

"God shine through the darkness! Once again I found the light as my guide! Praise the Lord!"

Pr. Ling -DUMC Mission pastor- prayed for me during the ministry night, God spoke to me through him. God told not to wander off, looking left and looking right. God asked me to focus on Him. God also said, I only have one life and live it for Him! That night was the night I found my purpose again and that night also the night that God picked me up from the darkness!

Wow, I was inspired and encouraged by Aunt Esther's -DUMC missionary in Cambodia- testimony. Someone wanted to kill her, she was lonely and she nearly wanted to give up as a missionary but God reassured her and she obeyed! She even sacrificed her comfortable life to be missionary at Cambodia... I was inspired. =')

Then, I was also inspired and encouraged by this movie -End of the Spear- that Pr. Ling played during MCPP-2. Through this true story movie, I was touched and I finally can see again from my blindness! "I was blind, but now I see!"

Today, I am encouraged! I want to be Somebody for Someone; so that people will see how great, how real and how wonderful God is and people will give all honors, all glories and all praises to God! =)